Happy New Year, darling! ♥
January 1, 2005 I asked my bf last thursday if we could meet up somewhere near my house so we can talk. I told him that I'm a bit sad for a reason that me, myself don't know... that's what I told him. (yeah, I'm weird -_-;
Well, err... I do know the reason why. I kept thinking aboout my life.. full of feign.. It'snot that I'm not honest to him or to my friends. It's just that I don't want them (the people who are close to me) to know... that's why I pretended to be happy and made up stories to cover up my sadness. And so I became hooked to internet and became another person. This is not the real me, I know that. I am confused.. I really don't know what I really want- that was what I told him.He knows it. He knows that I'm afraid of our relationship...... that it willbe just like the relationships or "not really relationships" I had. That day, I told him that I wish it's january 2005 coz I really have this feeling that I was jinxed last year -___-;;; What I did'nt tell him is that ther came a time that I was thinking maybe I'am not nlove with him.. maybe the thought of being inlove and be loved just thrills me.. maybe I really don't love him... what if that's the truth
Don't think of me of anything. I am not the kind of person who plays on people's hearts. I really really love him. I am just afraid to lose him.
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Happy New year, yeah... pero umiiyak kaninang madaling araw sa akin si Treb. Kasalanan ko naman. Di ko napigilang sabihin sa kanya yun *points at the orange bold texts above*.... Pero ang totoo nyan, di ko alam kung yan ba talaga yung nagpaiyak sa kanya. Pinaguusapan din kase namin kanina si megumi at yung parang pinagbabawalan ko siya or something.. dunno -_-. Di ko nga alam na umiiyak na siya nun eh (pero nasesense ko, kalala ko lang garargar yung phone) .. Umiyak na rin ako.. ayokokase syang mawala sa buhay ko..
x_sumoru @ 11:44 AM
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hug mehhh!! ♥
December 31, 2004 eheheh.. yeah a new blog/tab! whehew. I have so many blogs that it is soo public I decided to make a secret blog where I can write all my rants, random thoughts, feelings that I dont want others (even my bf, eheh) to know. :pdaijoubu ^^&.. you wont even know my real identity, anyway
ahahahha * looks at the layout* utada hikaru.. whooho I'm not really a fan of hers (that's because I don't have that good info about jpop but I'm an otaku so I'm willing ^^). I really like this layout eheh..
It's new year and sunday is my birthday ^^
ja!!
x_sumoru @ 12:36 PM
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This is a favorite post.